| ok..so...I need to vent I have had quite a few friends complain to me.."We never talk anymore" "We have fallen apart" " It feels like when you moved you kicked me out of your life"
Well I have tried to stay close...I am not using names in this blog, and if you leave a comment I ask you to not brig up names as well.but I grew up with this girl who was like a sister to me. And I planned to spend my whole life being close to her.When I was 14 I ran away from my dad's and she went crazy.she was SO upset that I left.she didn't realise I had to do it for myself tho.?I tryed to stay friends with her over the years.?When I entered collage I learned alot about myself.1 thing being that I like women.This friend made my life a living hell for MONTHS, harrassing me to the point I attempted suiside....Obviously I did not sucseed.but now she's telling me I am the one who left her life and calling ME the bad guy.I miss the old times SO much..but how could I EVER trust her again after that?and HOW am I the one to blame?And another friend..We were Closer than close.we use to talk for HOURS on end.We faught alot to tho.It seemed like I had another mother, rather than a freind.well, needless to say we fell apart over the years.I tried SO hard tho to keep the friendship we once had..but she was always busy with her boyfriend it seemed like.?She asked just recently " Why don't we talk much anymore?it feels like I have lost all the friends I once had.."I TRIED to stay her friend..I tried SO hard, and even now, after noticing she has few friends, I reached out to her..only to see she was with her bf and was unable to talk...I am not writting this to point fingers, upset people, or make them feel guilty.I am writting this becuase it has been killing me inside becuse I?would never tell them to there face.and I still can't.I just need them to know how it is I feel.If somthing changes..great..but thats not what I am asking for..i just want them to relise that (I) never choose it to be this way... |
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