| Again, no editing... enjoy!My clinic is really a healing practice.?I deal with people's traumas in my practice.?I listen to them as they speak of their injustices, their betrayals, their live and vivid nightmares, their "rock bottoms", and I am always amazed at the resiliency of the human race.?I find myself wondering if a dog, lion, or even a large and strong elephant could handle the emotional rollercoaster a human deals with on a daily basis.?It is entertaining to me when people try to tell me they don't have traumas.?"Really?"?I say.?"How was the drive here, did anyone flip you off in traffic, or did anything scare you into thinking your survival was threatened in any way?"?"Well, yes."They always reply, "This world is all about survival dugh."At any rate, I would like to write about something I have discovered about most humans I see.?We have several survival skills.?Really, we are so amazing.?There are many ways the body, mind, and spirit deal with stress and trauma so we can continue living.?We have the incredible adrenal glands that are responsible for excreting the "flight or fight" hormone into our blood stream under life threatening circumstances.?That hormone literally gives us super human powers such as lifting a car off our baby, running at the speed of a bullet away from a weapon, etc.?We have ways of going into denial checking out so to speak.?Ways of blocking childhood traumas so that we can cope and continue life.?However, the coping mechanism I am most interested in is the disconnection we make from ourselves in the moment we go into a survival mode.?I have noticed my clients do this interesting thing to themselves when they have been devastated, abused, shocked, hurt, or traumatized.?I call it Spirit Dropping.?It is where they literally separate and leave a part of themselves at "the scene of the crime" so to speak.?Case Study:??A child who was left by mistake by their mother at a store felt totally and completely alone for the first time.?While in this crisis, the child was sent into pure survival mode wandering the isles, heart beating, adrenaline pumping, mind racing, and feelings broken.?It is such an intense moment for the child that even after mom reappears, the child is still in shock.?The mother wisps the child into her arms apologizing, and takes the child back with her into the safety of home.?HOWEVER, the child in the state of despair drops a part of its spirit right into the store; this part of them stays the same age and at the same location.?There forever, the part of that child worries, wanders, and cries for mommy.?This part stays connected to the physical body of the future adult who now sits at my desk wondering why they feel lost and alone all the time- "even in the midst of many people I feel as if I am all alone in the world", they complain.?Hmmmm.?This story is one of many told at the side of my desk and I wonder.How many of us have dropped our spirits in the time of a crisis to a place, person, situation, and are now still connected to that part of ourselves, feeling disconnected, scattered, and "not whole".?After studying this phenomenon for some time and conversing with the Angels, I had an experience of my own that I am wiling to share with you.?I was driving down the road on an ordinary day, with an ordinary song, in ordinary clothes, feeling like everything was quite in order.?When all of the sudden I found myself staring into the car next to me as I sat at the longest red light I'd ever encountered.?There, right there, was my high school boyfriend.?I hadn't seen him in YEARS.?There he was, nodding his head to some music, elbow hanging out in the sun.?You'd think I would have smiled, honked, waved, or maybe just shrugged my shoulders and went on with life but no.?Seeing him was like facing a part of me that I had "Spirit Dropped" right into his lap.? |
| Seeing him was like facing a part of me that I had "Spirit Dropped" right into his lap.?All of the sudden I was sweating, heart pounding, memories flooding my mind and like fire they spread through my veins.??
I was being triggered.?I was remembering where I had left a part of myself due to an overly traumatic situation, and my young teenage self was screaming, "take me out of here!!!"?The light turned green, I was still seeing red.?He drove off.?I stayed there.?I felt like screaming, "You bastered, get back here with myself!?The one you took so young!?My innocence!?My childhood, you have her and I want her back!!"?I couldn't believe I had forgotten what had happened with this boy so long ago I had seperated from myself and left a part of me there to deal with pain I could not handle.I drove my car into a gas station and let the tears fall down my face.?I was breathing now and realized I needed to call my spirit back from the situation that I had left it in.?I understood I left that part of me there in order to cope with life, for if I had taken it with me I would not have had the healing skills I do now to deal with the pain.?I would have died.?With my eyes closed, I envisioned myself as a young, sun kissed blonde 16 year old.?I could see her standing in the room where the incident occurred.?I could see her trusting, sweet eyes as they beheld the scene that was about to take place.?I entered her space as an adult.?I took her hands.?I told her she was loved, that I was here now and that she didn't have to remain there anymore.?I told her I had grown to be an amazing woman, one who could take care of her and heal these wounds.?I let myself meld into her, feeling more life enter my body.?I asked God and the Angels to surround us and heal us.?I learned in that instant how to call that part of me back.?A part that had been suffering on my behalf for years.?It felt good.?It felt closer to being whole.?It's my belief that every human has done this.?I believe all of us have been in a situation where our minds, bodies, or spirits could not handle the intensity and so we separated from that part of us and left it there to suffer alone.?Its time we start calling ourselves back home.?Its time we start healing these parts of us that have scattered all over our life map.?You can do this by meditating on where you might have dropped parts of yourself.?Did you ever hear bad news that made your heart break??Were you involved in a betrayal, abuse, trauma, or drama??Who were you with??What were you doing??Where were you??CALL YOURSELF BACK!!?Begin to integrate and you will find some of your issues that remain connected to these pieces heal.?Much love for you.Namaste! |
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