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I COULD DROP DEAD WAITING FOR THAT SHIP. |
| THERE HAS TO BE A BETTER PORT OR THROW ME OVERBOARD!I COULD NOT GET OUT OF BED TODAY FOR THE LONGEST AND IT WASN?T FROM BEING TIRED.WELL, ACTUALLY IT WAS BEING TIRED OF WORKING AT THINGS THAT MAKE ME WANT TO STAY IN BED.MY FATHER WAS A SUCCESSFUL ATTORNEY AND HE TOLD ME ONCE THAT EVERY DAY HE COULDN?T WAIT TO GET OUT OF BED AND SEE WHAT THE DAY HAD IN STORE.HE HAD A PASSION FOR HIS CAREER.MY CAREER IS LACKING IN CREATIVITY AND ABOUT TO BORE ME TO DEATH.YES, I GET TO HELP OTHERS AND I DO LIKE THAT PART WHEN THEY WANT TO GET BE BETTER.?I AM A PSYCHOTHERAPIST.?I GIVE MY ALL TO MY CLIENTS BECAUSE I BELIEVE EVERYONE SHOULD HAVE A CHANCE AT HAPPINESS BUT SOMETIMES FORGET MY OWN.?I WAS A PROFESSIONAL ACTOR AND SINGER AT ONE TIME AND STILL HAVE ALL MY UNION CARDS, PAID UP IN FULL AND ACTIVE, BUT DO NOTHING WITH IT ANYMORE.I WALKED AWAY BECAUSE I WASN?T PREPARED TO TAKE THE BUSINESS ASPECT.I HAD NO MENTORS AND I GOT TIRED OF EATING OUT OF CANS, USED ONE?S AT THAT.?I WENT TO SANTA FE TO SPEND A SUMMER, SEE THE OPERA AND ENJOY THE?JAPANESE MOUNTAIN?SPA.IN OTHER WORDS, I WENT TO FIND MY SOUL AGAIN.LONG STORY, SHORT, I ENDED UP IN ATLANTA GOING BACK TO SCHOOL TO BE A THERAPIST.THE CREATIVITY CAME ONLY WHEN BUYING OLD HOUSES TO REDESIGN AND RENOVATE.?THEN I FELT ALIVE.I LEFT A FIFTEEN YEAR RELATIONSHIP BECAUSE I FELT LIKE I WAS WAITING TO DIE AND MY CREATIVE CAVITY WAS BECOMING EMPTY.I WAS LOSING MY MIND, WONDERING WHAT HAPPENED TO THAT SPIRITUAL GUY WITH ALL THAT LIFE IN HIM.SO, I STARTED WRITING WHICH I ALWAYS LOVED TO DO BUT WAS SO BUSY LIVING LIFE ACCORDING TO EVERYONE ELSES IDEA OF SUCCESS THAT IT HAS BEEN HARD TO WRITE LIKE IS NEEDED TO KEEP MY SANITY.?SO THIS MORNING I WOKE UP NOT FEELING VERY?WELL AND STARTED ASKING MYSELF WHAT WAS GNAWING AT MY SPIRIT AND ENERGY.I? FELT ANXIETY AND SOME DEPRESSION.AND THEN LIKE A LOUD NOISE GOING OFF IN MY EAR, I GOT IT!I HAD A GREAT AUNT, MAMIE, WHO USED TO VISIT US WHEN I WAS SMALL.SHE WAS MY MOTHER?S AUNT AND I REMEMBER STARING AT HER EVERY TIME SHE VISITED US AND WANTING TO GO BACK TO CALIFORNIA WITH HER.?HER SON LIVED THERE AND SHE HAD MOVED TO BE NEAR HIM.?HE LIVED IN PASADENA AND HAD NOTHING TO DO WITH THE ENTERTAINMENT INDUSTRY.?WHAT DID AUNT MAMIE, I FOUND OUT LATER, DO FOR A LATE LIFE CAREER??SHE WAS A CARETAKER FOR CHILDREN OF MAJOR MOVIE STARS OF THAT DAY.?THERE WERE A NUMBER OF THEM.?SHE LOVED IT AND THEY TREATED HER SO WELL EVEN THOUGH SHE WAS JUST THRILLED WATCHING THE KIDS AND BEING AROUND THOSE SHE DESCRIBED AS ?FASCINATING CREATURES?.?THAT IS WHAT I WANT.I WANT THAT CAREER THAT ISN?T SO PLANNED OUT.IT COMES BECAUSE IT IS MEANT TO BE AND SOMEONE WHO PLAYS A ROLE IN THAT SCENARIO KNOWS YOU ARE THE?GLOVE THAT FITS WHAT THEY ARE NEEDING.?I HAVE NO DOUBT IT HAS TO BE AROUND CREATIVITY.WHEN I ACTED, I LOVED IT BUT LATER REALIZED I WAS MUCH MORE A VISIONARY TYPE AND WOULD HAVE BEEN GREAT BEHIND THE SCENES IN THE PRODUCTION END.?AT THE TIME I BELIEVED IT WAS TOO LATE TO START OVER AND GO FOR THAT END OF THE BUSINESS.?I LOVE TO ORGANIZE AND TAKE CARE OF THOSE WHO WORK HARD TO CREATE IN THE WORLD.IT?S THE PEOPLE AND ATMOSPHERE THAT HAS TO BE IN YOUR SOUL TO KNOW WHY THE VERY?SMELL OF A SET OR STAGE WAS AN INSTANT ?HIGH AND?WHY THOSE IN THE INDUSTRY WERE LIKE NO OTHERS.THEY BREATHED A DIFFERENT AIR AND SAW A DIFFERENT VISION.?I HAVE TO FIND MY WAY THERE?AND SOON.I KNOW IT IS NO ACCIDENT I HAVE FINALLY ARRIVED AT A PLACE IN MY LIFE WHERE I CAN GO ANYWHERE AT ANY TIME.I THINK OF ALL MY ABILITIES.I UNDERSTAND THE INDUSTRY, THE IMPORTANCE OF PRIVACY AND CONFIDENTIALITY.I KNOW THE PAPARAZZI CAN BE DANGEROUS AND ARE TO BE WATCHED.I TRAINED IN REIKI AND MASSAGE THERAPY IN CALIFORNIA TO ACTUALLY LEARN MORE ABOUT HOW THEY AFFECTED MY BODY IN SUCH MIRACULOUS WAYS.WHO THAT CREATES DOESN?T UNDERSTAND THE POWER OF THOSE MODALITIES WHEN WORKING LONG HOURS??I AM GREAT AT ORGANIZING AND GETTING THINGS DONE.?I AM ABLE TO SING AND ACT AND I AM VERY GOOD.I WRITE AND I WRITE WHERE EMOTIONS CAN JUMP OFF THE PAGE.?I KNOW I AM GOOD AT SO MANY THINGS THAT CAN BE PRICELESS IN THE INDUSTRY AND TO THOSE WORKING IN IT.SO, FORGIVE MY INDULGENCE FOR WRITING OUT WHAT I HAVE TO FACE.?I WILL GO INSANE IN THIS WORLD.I AM NOT FOR THE MENTAL.I AM FOR THE HEART AND SOUL AND I BELIEVE THAT IS WHERE THE CREATIVE HAS ITS HONORED SEAT.?SO, I AM PUTTING IT OUT THERE AND WHERE IT GOES NOBODY KNOWS.I JUST KNOW IT IS THE BEGINNING OF GETTING AWAY FROM ANY IDEA I CAN ESCAPE IT.WITH LOVE,
ALEX PRINCE |
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