| Ok...at this point I figured I wouldn't be worried about the wedding or anything like that.I thought I'd be done planning and just having fun with life and all that jazz... well I'm actually freaking out.I mean not a little freak out but the kind of freak out that includes me feeling dizzy and me throwing up three times and almost passing out.I know people have the right to freak out before they get married because it's not like picking out what candy you want in the grocery store(even though that can be just as hard sometimes too), it's picking the person you are saying I want to die with this person when I'm old and grey because I know i'll still love them from now to the day I die.That is insane.I've been thinking about mine and Jon's relationship up to this point and one can't help but wonder if this is the right path I'm suppose to be on.I know this is just cold feet talking but still I'm freaking out!I just started sending out invites the other day and now I think it's finally setting in...I'm getting married.I want to get married, I really do and Jon is the person I want to marry.He makes me laugh and he loves his daughter.He got down on one knee and asked me to marry him and I said YES!I'm still getting married on June 14 but I just thought I had more time.It just kind of jump up and said Hey I'm coming soon!Look at me I'm almost here!!I have felt sick for the last week thinking about this wedding.I know things will go smoothly, even if they don't, I don't care because I just want it to be Me and Jon and nobody else matters (besides Piper, of course) It's not creeping up slowly anymore.It's right in my face!In a couple weeks I'll be Mrs. Fairplay and I can't wait but I'm also freaking out and just want June 14th to get here quickly so I don't have to stress anymore. |
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