| I should be doing more homework, but I've been working on it for hours and I need a break.I can't believe that there are only a few more weeks left of the semester.I don't know whether I'm relieved or just terrified.I've been having recurring nightmares that all of a sudden, right before finals, I realize that I have been enrolled in a class the whole semester and forgot to attend class the whole time.It's usually a subject that I haven't taken in years, too, so I frantically try to make up an entire semester's worth in a subject that I know nothing about.I always wake up with my heart racing.I can't wait to graduate.I can't believe it has taken me so long, but I guess I don't have to prove anything to anyone but myself.I know the reasons why it's dragging on, as long as I can forgive myself, it should be enough.As everyone knows by now, Shaun and I are engaged.He proposed on our three year anniversary, it was very sweet and romantic.I like calling him my fiance, I like having an excuse to look at bridal magazines.His mom is really excited about it, she's passing along all her wedding magazines and can't wait to look at dresses.I'm really grateful for that, it will make my own mother's absence a little less apparent.Charles, thank you so much for making me see Lars and the Real Girl.I can't wait to see it again, it's right up there with Darjeeling Limited on my list of favorite movies this year.And I am obsessed with that Talking Heads song, it's been on repeat for an embarrasingly long amount of time.Out of all those kinds of peopleYou got a face with a viewI'm just an animal looking for a homeShare the same space for a minute or twoAnd you love me till my heart stopsLove me till I'm deadEyes that light up, eyes look through youCover up the blank spotsHit me on the head
I love it.I'll have to play it at the wedding, which is probably going to be in two years, because we're poor, maybe on our five year anniversary.I'm really looking forward to winter break.There are a lot of people I haven't seen or even spoken to in months, or longer.I really miss my friends, I feel like such a mole, trapped at home with my books.Right now, though, I had better get back to my homework. |
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