| 7:56am:?Not sure how things are going this morning, as I haven't been up long enough and need more coffee.?I talked to Meg for quite a while yesterdaymostly about all the weird things that go on when you stop smoking (she has been quit for almost 2 years now.?Yay Meg!)?The one that's bothering me the most at the moment is the 'ghost' feeling of having forgotten something or need to be doing something other than what I'm doing.?It's not really a craving, as such, but the same feeling you get when you kinda remember turning off the coffee pot before you left the housebut did you really??Should you go back and check??No, nothe light was offor was it??DAMN!?I recognize this as the 'habit' part of smoking.?Meg says it takes the longest to go away.?I do hope it happens less frequently as time goes by.?Right now it happens every 5 or 10 minutes, unless I am REALLY distracted by something.?Very annoying.?They say the physical addiction withdrawals only last for 3 days, so I've hit a milestone!Yippee!?Even though I'm still not feeling well, I think it would be good for me to take a shower, dress nice, and go do something.?Anything.?Isolation was ok for the first few days, but I have to start seeing how I handle people.?Oooo!?I could go to WALMART!?There are always plenty of people who piss me off at Wal-MartI can practice self calming skills like deep breathing, counting to 10, and whacking that bitch who won't skooch up a few inches and let me by while she takes a freaking hour to decide which box of hamburger helper to inflict on her family for dinner.?(Hey!?Even writing that made me feel much better!)?On the bright side: It's all goodI have my humor back!9:36am:?You've got to be kidding me????It's not even noon yet??I've read all my email, read a magazine, did 2 loads of laundry, some household repairs, and drank a pot of coffeeand it's only 9:36.?If this is any indicator, this day will drag on forever.?Looking at that positively, it is Sunday and I don't have to work today!?Guess it's time to go take a walk.?It's 61 out and that's about perfectnot too hot, not too cold, juuuuust right.?Wonder if I'll meet the 3 Bears out there???On the bright side:?The sore throat doesn't seem to be as bad today.?Went away after about an hour.?Huh.10:10pm:?Grabbed up Alan and took him shopping at Wal-Mart.?I avoided re-stocking my snacks and just got things like little baby carrots to nosh on when I need it.?Of course, while watching TV, I still managed to eat a bowl of popcorn, soup for dinner and ice cream with chocolate topping and whipped cream for dessert.I really have to watch the eating thing and make sure I am doing enough exercise to counter it.?Of course at this rate, I'd need to run the Boston Marathon every other day
?On the bright side:?I'm not really having withdrawalsjust an uncomfortable mental "flash" during those times when I used to smoke.?They are becoming less frequent.Yay! |
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